Yay, I can write again!

This morning I am feeling gratitude flowing out of every cell of my body and mind.
I am tingling....

Everyone has know some type of pain.
Knee pain, back pain, pain of giving birth, pain from a fall.
I have felt physical pain. I remember lying on the floor with my back seizing, ironically at work in a pain clinic!
so much pain I couldn't breath! You never really know it till you feel it...

What I have never known is deep emotional pain.
The kind you see in a movie, that brings you to tears. But you never really experience it because it's not you.
These past few months I have felt it. So now I know...

But that story is for another day, today I am feeling deep gratitude and it is that that I want to share with you all.

I was reminded tonight by the universe what beauty lies in our lives even when it seems like you are letting go of everything you love.

Let me tell you what my night was like...
I substituted for a friend teaching a Zumba class downtown.
Now, since I have moved to the suburbs, I have to say I can count on one hand the times I have been in town.
For those of you who don't live in Montreal, it is only a 25 minute drive away from any of the surrounding suburbs.
I was laughing at myself most of the way there, just thinking of how foreign, and I must admit, slightly scary it felt.
The students showed me so much love and appreciation, begging me to keep coming back.

Gratitude #1:
I am great at what I do and I looooooove it!


My close friend Patty came to my class and we later grabbed a bite to eat.
Like a good girlfriend does, she mostly sat there and listened as I poured out the truth.

Gratitude #2:
I am loved by my friends and they see me (I know you think that is a line from Avatar, but I have been using it forever!! lol).

Then I came home to receive an email from someone I don't know yet. She read one of my blogs and she was so inspired she wants to change her life.

Gratitude #3:
People deserve happiness and love. My writing can inspire change for the better. WOW!

Later I'm lying in bed posting stuff on Facebook, and the most mind blowing thing happens.
My very close friend Astrina asks me to accompany her to Korea to pick up her new child because her husband can't possibly make it.
Whaaaaaaaaaaaatt????!!!!

The love and overwhelming gratitude of this can't be put in point form.
I think this is the most incredible thing that has ever happened to me in my life!
Being a part of such a unifying, loving experience is pure bliss for me!!!
I fell asleep thinking it was all a dream, till I awoke at 5am to a picture I received in my inbox. An angelic boy looking straight at me, and the caption read,
"I love you Thia Vered".

Before I went to sleep I told my brother yesterday about how I want to write again, but I have been feeling blocked.

He graciously reminded me in a short note of everything I believe, and I quote him,
"Life is heavy, pain is everywhere, but also the beautiful and the miraculous. Appreciate the beauty of every moment you experience, perfect or not.
The miracle of enjoying a great cup of coffee, and appreciating everything that had to happen to get you to that point."

I am on a new journey now and I am grateful for it.
I am grateful that I have found my power again, my love of self.
That I have the courage to want more love in my life and that I have the strength, support and belief to go out and get it!
Woooooooopppp!!!

Love & gratitude,
Vered.

This blog is dedicated to Lisa Lajoie my spiritual teacher and friend.
I love you from the deepest part of my soul!